Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Epilogue

Epilogue

Thirteen Years Later


Sabi nila may mga bagay na kahit anong pilit natin kung hindi talaga meant to be wag ng ipilit dahil kahit anong gawin mo hindi mo talaga ito makakamit, sa huli masasaktan ka lang. Pero sabi din ng iba, ipaglaban mo ito kahit anong mangyari sabi nga nila diba try and try until you succeed. Ipaglaban mo kahit masakit dahil malay mo worth it pala ito. Siguro nga hindi mo ito makakamit sa huli, na sa huli hindi talaga nararapat diba mas magandang sabihin sa sarili mo na at least sinubukan mo? Na naglakad ka palayo na nakataas ang ulo mo at hindi ka ang biguan? Na walang pagsisisi?


Pero may mga bagay naman na kahit anong pilit ilayo kung meant to be sa huli babalik at babalik parin sayo. Na kahit gaano karaming pagsubok ang dinaanan mo sa huli babalik parin ito sayo dahil nga para sayo talaga ito. Sabi nga nila kahit wag mo ng ipagbalaban dahil sa huli naman daw babalik din sayo kasi ayun yung nakatakda pero diba mas maganda parin isipin na kahit nakatakda na sayo ang isang bagay ipinaglaban mo parin ito? Na sinubukan mo din ipaglaban? Na sa huli makukuha mo iyon na mapapagmalaki mo na ipinaglaban mo din ito, na hindi ka naduwag at lumaban ka rin para dito.


Walang kasiguraduhan ang buhay natin, akala natin madami pa tayong bukas na darating kaya binabalewala lang natin ang ngayon, may kasabihan nga na why do it today when you can do it tomorrow? Sa lahat nangyari sa akin, sa amin mas pinaniwalaan ko na hindi dapat aksayahin ang ngayon dahil lang may bukas pa, dahil hindi natin alam ang pwedeng manyari. So I learned to live like there's no tomorrow.


I didn't take today for granted, I cherished today as I will cherish my tomorrow.


Ngumiti ako habang pinagmamasdan ang nakikita ko ngayon, isang buong pamilya na masaya, tatlong batang naglalaro at  isang lalaki na masayang nakikipaglaro sa tatlong batang ito. Ang saya saya nila tignan, napaka-peaceful.


"Mommy!" Peep called and waved. I waved back at her smiling as she ran towards me.


As she reached over me she tripped and I was about to stand but luckily a man caught her in his arms. I sighed in relief that Peep didn't trip and scrape her knees that would be a disaster when it involved blood. Peep giggled and kissed him in his cheeks as she straighten and walked gracefully towards me.


"And that's how a princess walks." I said proudly.


She grinned "Papa said princesses don't run is that true mommy?" she asked as she settled in my lap.


"I think Papa is just jealous because he can't run anymore."I told her.


She looked up to me "Why can't he run?" she asked curiously.


"Because Papa is old." I said and she giggled.


"Papa is not old!" we both looked up and saw Enrique staring back at both of us with amusement. He sat beside us and Peep kept on giggling and mumbling that he was old.


"Bakit ngayon ka lang?" I asked Enrique who was looking at the lake where the two kids remained.


"Work." he shrugged.


"Always so busy." Peep said. "No wonder Cece loves daddy more than you." she teased.


We both looked at Peep who was smirking at Enrique. "Cece loves daddy more than me?" Enrique asked shocked with the revelation that a six year old just blurted out.


"Of course mas mahal ako ni Cece."


Peep nodded and jumped from my lap "Daddy!" she said as she raised both her arms, he picked her up. Peep grinned at Enrique "This is why Cece loves daddy more!" she exclaimed as he spun her around.


"Daniel, baka magsuka si Peep." I warned.


Binaba na din ni Daniel si Peep, umupo si Daniel sa tabi ko at si Peep naman sa lap ng daddy niya. "Nakakapagod." he said as he leaned on me.


"Told you to take it easy with the kids." sabi ko sa kanya at sinuklay ko ang buhok niya gamit ang mga daliri Nagulat nalang ako ng may tumalon at umupo sa lap ko, tinignan ko kung sino ito at nginitian lang siya. "Is my little Lilo tired already?" I asked.


He shook his head but he leaned his head more on my body as he closed his eyes. "Hungry."


Enrique and Daniel both laughed. Then Enrique stood up "Puntahan ko lang sila Cece." sabi niya at naglakad na papunta sa mag-ina niya. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya haggang niyakap niya ang asawa niya at kinarga si Cece.


Tinignan ko si Lilo dahil napakatahimik at nung nakita kong tulog na siya napangiti ako. Nilingon ko din si Peep at nakatulog na din pala. They were both tired kaya mamayang pag-uwi igagawa ko sila ng paborito nilang s'mores.


"Tulog na yung dalawa." sabi ni Daniel at tumingin siya sa akin. "Gusto mong umuwi na tayo?" tanong niya sa akin.


"Paano sila Enrique?" tanong ko dito.


"Let's give them their own family time tas ganun din tayo." he suggested. Tumango ako at bigla niya akong hinalikan at agad din siyang tumayo pero dahan dahan lang para hindi magising si Peep. Nilahad niya yung kamay niya at kinuha ko naman ito at itinayo niya.


Kinuha niya din si Lilo sa akin, hindi ko alam kung paano niya nakakayang buhatin yung dalawang bata pero ang ganda parin tignan ng mag-ama ko. Naglakad na kami papunta sa kotse, nilagay niya yung dalawang bata sa likod.


Nagpaalam na din kami kayla Enrique. At nagmaneho na siya pauwi sa aming bahay.


Habang nasa sasakyan kami, napaisip ako sa mga nangyari sa buhay namin. Muntik ng mamatay si Daniel, muntik na siyang mawala ulit sa akin pero eto siya ngayon malakas at masaya na kami kasama ang dalawa naming anak.


I never recovered my memories. Siguro ang memorya ko na yung naging kabayaran para mabuhay si Daniel. At ayos na sa akin na hindi ko na ito maalala dahil mas mahalaga sa akin na mabuhay si Daniel. Kung ang memorya ko ang kapilit ayos lang.


Dahil mas gugustuhin kong gumawa ng bagong memorya kasama si Daniel kaysa maalala ang nakaraan na wala naman si Daniel sa tabi ko. Dahil sa buhay mas mahalaga parin ang kinabukasan kaysa sa nakaraan. Dahil ang nakaraan hindi mo na mababago ang nangyari na sa kinabukasan ay pwede mong baguhin.


Nang nakarating na kami sa bahay namin, inakyat ni Daniel ang dalawang bata sa mga kwarto nito para makapagpahinga pa sila habang ako naman ay inayos ang magiging campsite namin ngayon.


Tinulungan din ako ni Daniel na ayusin ito at pagkatapos ay nag-grill na siya ng hamburgers and some steak. Ako naman ay nagbake ng cake para sa dalawang bata.


Naunang nagising si Peep na mukhang inaantok parin pero nang naamoy niya ang cake ay agad itong sumampa sa counter para matignan ung cake. "Can I eat now mommy?" she asked.


"No baby hintayin natin sila daddy and Lilo." sabi ko at nag-pout naman siya.


Sandali din ay nagising na si Lilo at nagpunta na kami sa labas kung nasaan ang campsite namin pati na din ang hamburger for our dinner. Masayang kumain ang mga bata at ganun din si Daniel.


Dahil masigla ulit yung dalawa, naglaro kaming apat. We gazed at the sky happily as the two kids dozed off to sleep.


Nakasandal ako sa dibdib ni Daniel katulad ng mga bata. "Daniel?"


"Hmmm?"


"This is what mommy wanted me to have when she faked my death isn't it?"  I asked him.


"Yes." sagot lang niya.


My mother wanted me to have a simple and normal life, to fall in love with the right guy and be happy. And somehow I got it all. A simple life with the one I truly love and a happy normal life with my family.


"Happy Anniversary Kath." sabi niya at hinalikan niya ako sa buhok. "I love you."


"I love you too." I said.


"You made me whole Kath, you, Peep and Lilo are what makes me whole and content. And I'm happy I have you three." Daniel said.


I turned my head to look at him and smiled at him. "Well that would have to change." I grinned.


"Why?" he frowned.


"It's not just us four anymore." I said and sat up straight to look at him smiling. I placed my hand in my stomach "One more addition." I smiled.


He looked surprised but happy too. "You mean you're pregnant?"


I nodded. "Happy anniversary Daniel."


"Another baby, I wonder if it's a boy or girl. Peep would make a good older sister and Lilo would be the protective older brother if it's a girl but if it's a boy Lilo and him might do the protective little brother to Peep." he chuckled. "And Peep might be left out if it's a boy and I'm afraid that will also happen to Lilo if it's a girl."


"They just need to compromise."


"I know how to compromise." he smirked. "We'll make another one."


"I'd like that compromise." I grinned back at him, humiga na ulit ako sa kanya. "I like to have a big happy family."


"I do too." sagot niya. "I love you so much."


"As I do you." I closed my eyes.


They were right, if it's true love you will always find a way like how Daniel and I found each other back once we lost our way.


No matter what happens if it's true love, it will always be true and selfless.


I found my way as Daniel found his.


And now we're finally happy.

The End.

Author's Note:

It wasn't supposed to end like this, what I truly planned for this story was a tragic end. I've been hinting that tragic end with the book cover and some banners that I did: A love so sweet yet so tragic. Actually ayun talaga ang plano ko, may mamatay o hindi sila magkakatuluyan. Pero habang sinusulat ko yung mga nakaraang chapters nito, parang hindi ko kayang gawin. Parang gusto kong bigyan ng happy ending tong story na to. I was debating with myself and actually dapat mananalo ang tragic ending, Julia was supposed to get Daniel in the end ayun ang nasa isip ko dati palang at si Kath well gusto kong maging mystery kung anong nangyari sa kanya. I so much wanted the tragic ending mahilig kasi ako sa tragedy kaya I prefer those kind of stories and sympre as a writer gusto ko rin ipadama sa mga readers ko yung nadadama ko pagnagbabasa ako ng tragedy hindi nga lang ganun ka expressive yung tragedy ko, wala masyadong emotion, I'm still working on that emotion part. Anyway dapat nga wala itong happy ending but then naalala ko bigla this is a Kathniel fan fiction and as a Kathniel fan how could I write a tragic ending for them? They deserve a happy ending so I decided this is my ending, a Kathniel fan fiction should always end in happy endings. 

If you have any questions, feel free to ask and I will answer your questions and put it in the soft copy later on. If there's something you didn't understand just ask. Questions will be answered no matter how silly it will be. 

I will be giving soft copies as soon as I can edit those typos. Two versions will be given Just a Spoonful of Love Complete (Prologue-Epilogue)  soft copy and Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two (Chapter 13 - Epilogue)

Again if you have questions, just ask. 

Thanks for reading Just a Spoonful of Love.

Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Chapter 30 (The Final Chapter)

Chapter 30

The Final Chapter

Kathryn's Point of View


I should be asleep and not thinking of Julia or Daniel for that matter. But no I can't sleep. Tomorrow would be Julia's wedding to Enrique and I don't know what should I do.


I heard a loud crash on the adjoining bedroom and immediately stood up to check on Sam. He moved out of  the room and since then we had been starting to sleep separately. It was for the good of both of us. He won't listen to me and I don't know what to do anymore.


The day I went home, Julia was there and she told me the truth about that ball. Sam fell in love with the wrong girl and I was contemplating on whether to tell Sam or not but in the end my conscience won and I told Sam the truth.


He won't listen. He said I was making excuses but I knew he did listen but he just won't accept the truth.


Our future together seems to be a blur now. I love Sam but I also love Daniel.


I fell in love with him. Is it possible to love two guys at the same time? But I had chosen already and Sam won't accept that choice.


I hesitated on opening the door but I decided to enter anyway. I saw Sam lying on the cold floor so I ran to him and he smelled like alcohol. Was he drinking again?


"Sam."


He looked up "Julia?" he called.


I stared at him surprised at what he called me. He thought I was Julia? God was he that drunk to not recognize me? "It's me Kathryn." I said. I helped him to stand and he was so heavy. "Why did you drink?" I asked as I helped him to the bed.


He closed his eyes as he was lying on his bed. He looked so awful, this wasn't my Sam, this wasn't the Sam I knew. "I'm torn Kathryn." he said suddenly.


I sat on the edge of the bed and stared at him. "Why?" I asked as I unbuttoned his shirt.


"I love you but she just won't go away from my mind." he muttered. "And it's hurting me to know she's getting married but why would I be hurting when you're the one I love?" he opened his eyes and gazed at me.


I smiled at him sadly. We both keep on denying our feelings, we both keep on trying to push it away but we are also both hurting. "You love her old fool." 


He stared at me in a while then he closed his eyes once again. "I guess I do." he finally admitted. "But I love you so much." he said. "And it's hurting me."


I stopped from unbuttoning his shirt and stared at him. "Then let go of me Sam." I told him.


"I can't. You told me I am now your present and future, how could I let you go?"


"Then let's create a new future separately." I said. "I do love you too Sam but we both know we also love someone else. I love Daniel and you love Julia."


"Would you be happy?" Sam asked. "And would she even accept me?"


"Try Sam. You haven't tried it yet." I smiled. I leaned closer to him and kissed him in the forehead. "Let's both let go of each other and try to find a new future."


He opened his eyes and he sat up "I don't regret the three years Kathryn." he said as he looked at me. "I will never regret it."


"I don't regret it too Sam. You made me happy." I said sincerely.


He hugged me suddenly. "I love you."


"I love you too." I patted his back. "So will you make a scene tomorrow?" I asked as I pulled away.


He grinned and pinched my nose. "I will." he said and leaned forward to kiss me on the forehead for the last time, I knew we were saying our farewells now. "Be happy okay?"


"You too Sam. We both deserve it." I smiled at him for the last time and stood up. "Rest so tomorrow you could whisk her away." I smirked and left the room.


We finally ended things. We finally let go.


And tomorrow we would both admit to the one we loved that we love them. I didn't know I loved Daniel but my mom told me so. She described Daniel and I and I finally realized I do love him.


I'm happy I could meet my mom, she's getting better and I hope I could see her once again. But the doctors said I should not get my hopes up, she's still weak and dying.


I was happy with Daniel and mom in the island. It was so peaceful. But since we got home I asked Daniel not to visit me for the meantime. I had to think that time. I had to choose.


Julia made it easier.


I slept with a smile on my face because tomorrow I would see Daniel and I could tell him that I love him too.



The next morning Sam and I both didn't wake up early for the wedding, we were both late. Sam had an excuse cause he was drunk but I don't.


We were both in a hurry but I don't know why I was such in a hurry I mean there will be no wedding because Sam would barge in and stop it immediately. So why was I in a hurry? I understand Sam but me no.


When we reached the Church, we both went to the bride's room. Sam wouldn't make a scene he said so himself. He won't barge inside the Church right when the priest said the magic words speak now or forever hold your peace.


He wouldn't.


So we went inside the room, no one was inside except for Julia who was staring at the mirror. "I love you." Sam suddenly said.


Julia was startled and she looked up to us. "You're late Kath." she said as she decided not to say anything about what Sam just said.


"Sorry." I murmured. "Have you seen Daniel?" I asked.


She shrugged. "Why are you looking for him when you should be attending to me right now?" she asked. "I'm getting married Kath and you're my maid of honor." she stated.


"Well you're not getting married." I muttered silently.


She looked to me again "What?" she asked.


I also shrugged "Sam I'll leave it to you now." I patted Sam's shoulder. "Good luck." I opened the door and walked out.


"Kath where are you going?" I heard Julia asked but I just walked out.


Just then I saw Daniel standing in front of the door, his body pressed in the wall and he was staring at me. "Daniel."I breathed his name.


He smiled at me. "How are you?" he asked.


"Fine." I said. "Can we talk?" I asked. I was nervous because what if he doesn't love me anymore? What if he....


"The ceremony will start soon so maybe later?" he said as he pushed his body away from the wall.


I grinned. "There will be no wedding so come on." I said.


He looked confused. "Why do you say so?"


"Well because there will be no wedding." I said. "Daniel I need to tell you something." I started. I might as well tell him here right now. I got the feeling that he won't like to leave yet. "I love you too." I confessed quietly. I wanted to get it out of my system because I was so nervous.


"What?" He said and he walked towards me. "Can you say it again?" he asked.


"I love you." I said.


And that was when he pulled me closer to him. He smiled at me, the smile that could melt any girl. "I love you too."


"Even if I don't remember our past?" I asked.


"Even if." he smiled once again. God. That smile could really melt me right now. "So what do you mean that there will be no wedding?" he asked.


I grinned at him. "Sam is inside." I said and he looked more confused. "He's in love with you and Julia is also in love with him." 


"Oh." that was all he said."You're not here because he left you right?" he asked me seriously but with a hint of humor.


I chuckled. "No. We decided to be friends." I said. "I love you."


"And I love you too Kath." with that he kissed me passionately.



Julia asked Daniel to inform Enrique about the wedding who was also relieved that he won't be marrying Julia, Daniel hinted that Enrique might be in love with someone too. So Enrique informed the guests about the sudden news.


Everyone was surprised by it. Julia's parents burst in the room and demanded what was wrong with Julia and she told them about Sam. Being Sam Gonzales had its perks too because they didn't force her to leave Sam. No they approved immediately.


We all waited for the guests to leave for the reception to avoid scandals. Julia and Sam decided to go to Europe until the talk is over.


I was happy because everything seemed to fit in place. Julia was happy with Sam and I was too.


We went out of the Church and Daniel and I waved our goodbye to Julia and Sam. Daniel was holding my hand and we decided to leave also and go back to our house.


We also wanted to celebrate.


Daniel parked his car the other way so we had to cross the road and he said that he would drive it this way so I don't have to cross the road.


Little did he know I was following him. I didn't want to wait, I wanted to be with him. And it wasn't like it was dangerous to cross the road. There were no cars.


He stopped from walking and turned around to look at me. He shook his head with amusement and he held out his hand so I eagerly walked towards him. He was smiling at me as I walked but then it all changed he looked frantic "Kath!" he screamed and that was when I saw the incoming car heading my way.


I waited for it to hit me because I just couldn't run away from it, it was like my body was frozen and just waiting for it to come. I closed my eyes and I felt that I was pushed and I fell on the ground. The fall hurt so much that I didn't open my eyes.


That was when I hurt a loud crash. I opened my eyes slowly wishing that no one got hurt. I saw the car stopped and the front was shattered, I looked at the other side of the road for Daniel but I didn't see him there.


A tear fell my eyes unknowingly and I stood up and looked around for Daniel, he wasn't anywhere. I was limping as I walked towards the back of the car and right there I saw a body far away from the car.


I shook my head in denial. It wasn't him. I kept on wishing that. I kept on wishing it wasn't him.


It wasn't him who pushed me away and he wan't the one lying on the cold ground.


As I reached the body I covered my mouth with both of my eyes as tears kept on falling. It hurts so much. I sat down and I pulled him close to me. "Daniel." I called. "Daniel." I called "Please open your eyes." I pleaded. "Please."


But he wasn't opening his eyes, he wasn't even moving. "Please don't leave me. We just got back together." I cried. "I love you so please Daniel open your eyes." I cried once again.


I heard the ambulance coming but I didn't care, all I cared about was Daniel opening his eyes.


"Please Daniel." I said and I stared at his face filled with blood. I looked to my hands and there was also his blood. "Daniel don't leave me." I cried.


"Miss kailangan na po namin tigann ang katawan." I heard a guy said. "Miss?" the guy said as he lowered his body to level with Daniel and I. He was a paramedic. "Miss?" he called again.


"You have to help him please." I then pleaded him.


"Ayun po ang gagawin namin." he said as he took Daniel's body away from me, they placed him in a stretcher and I stood up.


They were doing CPR on Daniel in the middle of the road. Then they hurriedly pushed him to the ambulance, I ran towards them even if my legs were hurting I didn't care.


As they were closing the ambulance door I stopped them. "I need to go with you."


"Miss pwede ka nalang sumunod."


"I'm his wife!" I demanded. And for the first time I realized that it was the first time I finally admitted being his wife in public. "I'm his wife and he needs me." I muttered.


The guy helped me up, I stared at them as they were doing something with Daniel's body. I didn't know what they were doing but they seemed to be in a rush. Then I heard the machine that was now connected into Daniel's body beep, I looked at it and saw a straight line.


"No!" I cried. "Save him please! Save my husband." I yelled. I pushed myself up to go to Daniel's side and I hugged him "Please Daniel don't leave me." but I kept on hearing the beeping sound of the monitor.


Just when I finally admitted to him that I love him, just when we're finally together this happened. They were talking away my Daniel.


Just when I thought I could have my happily ever after with Daniel.


Why was life so cruel with Daniel and I?


Is this really our end?


Author's Note:
No. This isn't the end yet. There would be an epilogue posted within this week also. I haven't written it because I still don't know what will happen to this story. It is still unclear for both you and me. I don't know the ending yet so it might still change. It's unpredictable for me yet. Wait for the epilogue.

Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Chapter 29

 
Chapter 29

Julia's Point of View


It had been 8 weeks since Kath and Daniel went on some island the Rutherford owned to visit Kath's dying mother. Nakausap ko si Daniel at sinabi niya na may cancer ang mom ni Kath kaya nito pineke ang kamatayan niya dahil dun din naman daw siya darating.


It was an epic reunion sabi ni Daniel at mukhang masaya si Daniel na kasama ni si Kath kahit sa ganoong situation sila magkasama. Lumalapit na ang loob lalo ni Kath kay Daniel at masaya ako para sa kanila pero nalulungkot din dahil alam namin dalawa ni Daniel na kahit anong paglapit ng loob ni Kath sa kanya, babalik parin ito kay Sam.


Mahal niya si Sam.


Nasasaktan ako para kay Daniel dahil ramdam ko na sinusulit na niya ang mga panahon na kasama niya si Kath dahil sa oras na bumalik na sila, babalik na din si Kath kay Sam.


Naglakad ako papunta sa loob ng bar ng hotel, kakatapos lang kanina ng bridal shower ko. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit kailangan ko pang magkaroon nun kung hindi naman isang love match ang kasal ko kay Enrique.


Tatlong taon ang naging engagement namin pero wala parin akong nararamdaman kay Enrique at ganun din siya sa akin. Our marriage is just conventional for both of the families. Mutual respect lang ang meron kami. We never were a love match like Kath and Daniel.


Pero wala na akong magagawa kundi sundin ang pamilya ko, wala din naman magagawa ang pagrerebelde ko dahil gusto ko rin naman ng stability sa buhay ko, gusto ko ng sariling pamilya. And I would never have that if I don't marry now.


Malas ako pagdating sa pagmamahal.


Pansin kong wala masyadong tao sa loob ng bar ng hotel, bilang lang sa lima ang tao. Napalingon naman ako sa isang table dun sa may dulo at malapit sa bintana. Isang lalaking umiinom. Normal pero hindi lang siya basta basta isang lalaki, si Sam siya.


Nakita ko rin na may nag serve pa sa kanya ulit ng isang pang bote ng whiskey siguro. He dismissed the waiter using his hand and he continued to stare at the window while he was drinking his glass of alcohol.


Ang plano ko ngayong gabi ay kumuha ng isang bote ng Dom at iakyat sa suite ko, dito na kasi ako nakatira sa hotel na ito, my stay was supposed to last only for 2 weeks pero yung 2 weeks nadagdagan ng 2 weeks ulit at ayun kilala na ako ng mga staff sa hotel at hindi na din ako umalis.


I stayed here because of my overbearing parents.


Nagdalawang isip ako kung lalapitan ko ba siya o hindi pero wala akong nagawa dahil parang may sariling utak ang katawan ko at naglakad ako palapit sa kanya. Nasa tapat na niya ako at nakita ko yung isang bote ng whiskey niya ay ubos na at may bago na.


Why was he drinking anyway?


"If you have something to tell me, say it already and don't stare." nagulat ako nung nagsalita siya. Paano niya nalaman na nandito ako at nakatitig lang sa kanya. "I can still see you." sabi niya sabay turo sa bintana gamit yung kamay niyang hawak hawak yung baso niya.


"Why are you drinking?" tanong ko sa kanya.


"Isn't it obvious?" tanong niya sa akin, nilingon niya ako nakita ko yung itsura niya. He looked awful. His face unshaven for days or maybe weeks. "You can sit and join me." sabi niya at tinuro yung upuan sa tapat niya.


Ginawa ko naman iyon at umupo ako. I frowned at him nung nakita kong naglagay ulit siya ng whiskey sa baso niya. He raised his hand to call the waiter at agad naman dumating yung waiter. "Sir?"


"Anong gusto mo?" tanong sa akin ni Sam.


"Can you bring a bottle of Dom to my suite?" I asked the waiter.


Tumango siya. "With strawberries ma'am?"


Ngumiti ako sa kanya. See alam na alam na ng buong hotel ang preference ko. "Yes. At pwede bang pakitanong sa kitchen kung meron pa sila nung deserts na hinanda kanina. I would like some samples of it in my suite."


"Okay ma'am." sabi niya at umalis na.


"I called him to give you your drink now." Sam said.


"Well I'm not staying that long." sabi ko sa kanya. "So bakit ka nandito at umiinom?"


"Kathryn left me." sagot lang niya.


"She didn't."


"Anong event meron kanina dito?" pag-iiba niya ng topic. Diyan magaling si Sam, hindi man kami magkaibigan, I'm well acquainted with him. Nakilala ko din siya at during our lunches before dun ko nalaman yung mga yun.


Alam kong ayaw niyang pag-usapan iyon kaya sinagot ko nalang siya. "Bridal shower."


"May kakasal kang kaibigan?" tanong niya.


"My bridal shower." sagot ko sa kanya. Mukha siyang nagulat dahil napatigil siya sa pag-iinom at tinignan niya ako. Hindi ko mabasa yung expression niya pero mukha siyang seryoso.


"I didn't know you're engaged."


I smiled. "I am. Hindi ko pa nabibigyan ng invitation si Kath kaya siguro hindi niya nasabi." sabi ko nalang.


"I don't see a ring."


Tinaas ko yung kamay ko at tinignan ito, wala ngang engagement ring. "Kath has the Vanderbilt ring." sagot ko. Though may engagement ring naman na binigay sa akin si Enrique, ayun yung promise namin sa isa't isa na we will have respect and friendship sa marriage namin. Pero hindi ko ito sinusuot.


Why wear something that reminds you that you're entering a loveless marriage? That you'll always be the second choice?


"You're marrying his cousin?" he asked.


"Yes the cousin. We're going to tie the know in two weeks." I stated. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko ba to sinasabi sa kanya.


"Ganun kabilis?" tanong niya. Tas tinignan niya yung buong katawan ko pero nagtagal sa may tiyan ko. "Buntis ka ba?"


"God no!" I said sabay tinakpan gamit ng dalawa kong kamay yung tiyan ko. "At hindi ganun kabilis, it has been a long engagement. Three years in fact." I pointed out.


"Why just now?"


"Gusto namin idelay ni Enrique."


"Bakit naman?"


"We wanted to have freedom." sagot ko lang. "Pero our parents got tired waiting so sila na nagdesisyon na itigil na yung paghihintay at ikasal na kami."


"You're not marrying for love?" he asked na parang gulat siya.


"In my world love isn't one of the reasons why I ought to marry." ngumiti ako sa kanya ng pilit. "Love is a necessity that I don't have." dagdag ko.


Nagpunta ulit yung waiter kaya hindi na nakapagsalita pa si Sam. "Ma'am nasa suite niyo na po yung mga pinahanda niyo."


"With the deserts?"


He grinned. "Yes ma'am. At po pala inayos na po nagdala yung mga regalo at dinala sa spare room daw po."


"Thank you and please do tell the hotel manager that I would be speaking with him regarding the rehearsal dinner." sabi ko and umalis na din siya agad.


"Talagang magpapakasal ka kahit hindi mo mahal ang papakasalan mo?" Sam asked me seriously.


Ngumiti ako ng malungkot sa kanya. "I told you love isn't a necessity in my life." sabi ko sa kanya. "I should go." tumayo ako at tinignan siya "Don't drive Sam. Call a driver to drive you home." sabi ko. "And Kath will be home soon, she's my maid of honor so she'll be back." naglakad na ako palayo sa kanya.


Nagulat nalang ako nang may biglang humawak sa braso ko, agad akong napatingin sa kanya. "Do you know I've been avoiding you?" Sam asked me as he tightened his grip in my arm.


"Let go Sam." I said.


"Did you know that? I've been avoiding you and then here you are!"


"What's your point?" tanong ko sa kanya. Hindi ko maintidihan kung bakit niya sinasabi sa akin iyon.


"What I'm trying to say is that stop trying to seduce me!"


I was taken aback with what he just said. Seduce him? "I'm not seducing you! Ikakasal na ako!" I yelled at him. "You're clearly too drunk."


"Then why are you always on my mind?" tanong niya sa akin na lalong nagpagulat sa akin. "Bakit ka laging nasa isip ko? Bakit mo dinadagdagan ang problema ko? Mahal ko si Kath pero bakit nasa isip kita?" medyo nawala yung pagkahigpit nung pagkahawak niya sa akin.


Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa kanya. Ano bang dapat sabihin sa kanya? Sa ganitong situation? Aminin na mahal ko siya para ano pa? "You're just drunk." sabi ko at nagmadaling umalis.


It was all too much.



My rehearsal dinner came and Kath said they will be going home for my wedding. Hindi ko lang alam kung kailan. At simula nung nangyari sa bar ng hotel hindi na ako pumunta dun at sa front desk ko nalang sinabi yung mga gusto kong inumin.


Mukha ngang pati ang pag-inom ko alam na ng buong staff. Dahil isang gabi nalang nandun na yung isang bote ng Dom kahit hindi ko pa sinasabi sa front desk.


Pitiful life. I know.


Nasa may terrace ako ng event hall ng hotel dahil nakita ko si Khalil na nagpunta dito. Matagal ko na din hindi nakakausap si Khalil at may gusto lang akong kumpirmahin.


Naramdaman niyang nasa likod niya ako kaya lumingon siya at ngumiti. "Anong ginagawa mo dito?" tanong niya.


"You loved her didn't you?" diretso kong tanong sa kanya. Dati ko pa ito gustong tanungin sa kanya kaso lagi nalang wala sa timing kaya ngayon kahit wala sa timing gusto kong itanong. "And you knew her mother before you even met her as Kathryn Park. You've always known who she was." I stated.


Sa mga panahon na nakita ko si Khalil lalo na nung nagpunta siya sa bahay nila Kath at Daniel at nagsorry siya dun sa picture frame, nagtaka na ako nun pero akala ko dahil lang kakamatay lang ni Kath pero naulit iyon. Nakikita ko siyang malungkot habang tinitignan yung picture ni Kath kasama yung mom ni Kath.


"You knew the plan of her mom to fake their deaths or maybe only Kath's death pero alam mo. Pero hindi ko lang maisip Khalil kung alam mo at mahal mo siya bakit hindi ka lumaban? Ikaw ang may alam ng katotohanan bakit hindi mo ito ginamit?"


He shrugged. "Dahil mahal niya si Daniel." sagot lang niya. "Ipagkakait ko pa ba sa kanya iyon kung ayun ang tanging dahilan kung bakit ko sinuggest na gawin nila iyon? Gusto ko rin magkaroon ng simpleng buhay si Kath gusto kong maramdaman niya yung tunay na pagmamahal. At kay Daniel niya iyon makukuha hindi sa akin Julia." dagdag niya.


Tumingin siya sa malayo "What I feel for Kath is true, I love her but I will never be the one to make her happy. When you love someone you set them free." sagot lang niya at nagsimula na siyang maglakad palayo. "My only mistake was I couldn't protect the love they shared." and he walked away.



Ngayon ang balik ni Kath at sinabi niyang dun na ako maghintay sa kanya sa bahay nila ni Sam, ayaw ko sana dahil ayaw kong makita si Sam pero sabi ni Kath wala daw si Sam dun ngayon, nasa Tagaytay daw ito.


Dumating si Kath at agad naman umalis si Daniel, nagpunta kami ni Kath sa patio nila at dun hinintay yung tea at cookies. Hindi ko mabasa yung nasa isip ni Kath pero mukha naman siyang masaya.


Tahimik lang kaming uminom ng tea, hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin. Ano nga bang dapat sabihin ngayon? Hindi ko alam kung pwede ko bang tanungin yung nangyari sa island or what.


"Sam lied." pasimula niya. Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya pero hindi ako nagsalita. "He said we danced during the midnight ball but until now the only recollection I had that night was dancing with Daniel alone. I thought he wouldn't lie anymore but he lied."


"He didn't lie." sabi ko. Hindi ko alam pero nasa instinct ko na talagang protektahan si Sam. "He thought he was dancing with you."


"What do you mean by that?"


I smiled bitterly, might as well tell her the truth. "We decided to exchanged our masks and shawls. I was the one dancing with him. So he didn't lie to you because he thought you were me." tumayo na ako at tumingin sa kanya na nakangiti. "See you on my wedding okay." sabi ko at umalis na din ako.


Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ko sinabi iyon kay Kath. Pero ganun din naman iyon eh, walang magbabago kung sasahin ko o hindi.


Ganun parin ang resulta.


Ikakasal parin ako at mahal parin ni Sam si Kath. 

Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Chapter 28

Chapter 28

Daniel's Point of View


Hindi ko na napigilan si Kath na huwag ng sumama sa akin dahil mapilit talaga siya at ang isang Kath na mapilit ay laging nasusunod. Ayun ang isang hindi nagbago kay Kath, kung anong gusto niya masusunod parin siya.


She was still the stubborn girl I met and fell in love with.


Kaya eto kasama ko siya ngayon paakyat ng top floor ng kompanya dahil nandun daw ang lahat ng board of directors at si Christopher Park. Hindi ko parin alam kung anong agenda niya, kung nandito ba siya para agawin ang kompanyang tinaguyod ng pamilya ng mga Rutherford o kung ano man.


Saktong paglabas namin ni Kath sa elevator ay ang paglabas din nila Julia at Sam sa kaharap na elevator namin. Napalingon si Sam sa amin at ganun din si Julia na gulat na gulat.


Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang nagulat si Julia na makita ako kung ako naman ang presidente ng kompanyang ito sa ngayon. Diba dapat ako ang magtaka kung bakit nandito siya sa kompanya?


"Sam what's happening?" Kath broke the silence and walked towards Sam. "And Julia what are you doing here?" tanong niya kay Julia.


Lumapit na din ako sa kanila. "May kailangan ka ba Julia?" tanong ko dito.


"We were together." sagot ni Sam. "Nagkasalubong kami sa hotel at dahil wala siyang sasakyang dala hinadtid ko na siya sa bahay para makita si Kathryn but we decided to eat lunch before we head home." paliwanag ni Sam.


"Sam tell me what's happening." Kath demanded and ignored the explanation of Sam on why they were together maybe because she truly didn't care. Wala naman kasing malisya talaga iyon.


"I don't know Kathryn."


"Lisa!" tawag ko sa sekretarya ko na kakadating lang sa may lobby. "Escort my wife and Miss Julia to my office." utos ko dito."Kath stay at my office first and then I'll go and try to explain everything later." sabi ko kay Kath.


Bigla naman sumimangot si Kath "I came here with you to listen not to wait." nakapamewang niyang sabi sa akin.


Ngumiti ako sa kanya "Please Kath?"


"No."


"Kathryn wait in his office. Then we'll go home." Sam interrupted us.


Tumingin sa kanya si Kath at bigla siyang nag-sigh "Alright." sabi niya sabay naglakad palapit kay Lisa. Sabay silang naglakad palayo ni Julia sa amin ni Sam.


I guesss kay Sam sumusunod siya at sa akin ay hindi.


Sabay na din kami ni Sam pumunta sa conference room kung nasaan nagkakagulo ang mga board of directors pati si Christopher Park. Tumingin silang lahat sa pagdating namin ni Sam.


Ngumisis si Christopher Park aka my father-in-law. "Oh andito na pala si Sam." nakangisi parin nyang sabi. "We can proceed."


"NO! Hindi kami papayag! Daniel will still lead this group not your lackey!" Mr. Santiago seethed.


"I'm Kathryn's guardian and eto ang gugustuhin ni Kath na ang mamuno sa kompanya niya ay ang isang taong pinagkakatiwalaan niya." aniya ni Christopher Park.


"Si Daniel ang guardian ni Kathryn dahil asawa siya nito!" sabi ni Mr. Santos. "And it's his within his rights to lead the company."


"Hindi nga siya maalala ng anak ko eh." nakangising saad niya. "In fact hindi nga niya kayo kilala."


Walang nakapagsalita sa amin sa sinabi niya. He was right hindi kami kilala ni Kath, para kay Kath parte lang kami ng nakaraan na nakalimutan niya, hindi ko nga alam kung makakasama pa ba ako sa future niya.


"Bakit mo kinuha si Kath at tinago?" bigla kong natanong sa kanya.


Tumingin ang lahat sa akin pabalik sa kanya. Nawala ang ngisi niya at tinignan ako ng seryoso. "Dahil anak ko siya." sagot lang niya sa akin. "Pinagkait na siya sa akin dati at gusto ko lang makasama ang anak ko."


"Kung ayun lang bakit pinipilit mo parin makuha ang kompanyang ito?" Mr. Santos asked.


Nilingon ni Christopher Park si Mr. Santos "Because this should have been mine!" he almost yelled at us. "Kung hindi dahil sa pagsusuhol niyo kay Eclair we should have been married and Rutherford-Park would be born but you took that away."


Iniisip ko ngayon ano kaya talaga ang nangyari dati para magkahiwalay ang magulang ni Kath. Anong katotohanan?


"You were an insolent fool, you were no match for a Rutherford." Mr. Santiago told him.


Dahil ayaw ko ng marinig pa ang mga ito dahil naguguluhan lang ako, hindi ko kasi alam kung ano ba ang pakay ni Christopher Park sa mga buhay namin


"Paano mo napapayag si Paul na ilihim ang katotohanan?" tanong ko sa kanya kasi para sa akin ito ang pinaka-importanteng tanong sa lahat. Paano niya napapayag si Paul who vowed to bring Kath home no matter what. Na sobrang loyal sa pamilya ng mga Rutherford.


"Paul is Eclair's loyal lapdog and he would do anything for his mistress." Christopher Park said.


"Kathryn is the new mistress of the Rutherford Family so what are you suggesting that he did it because Kathryn wanted to?" asked Mr. Santiago.


He was right Eclair Rutherford died already that made Kath the new head of the family.


"Diyan kayo nagkakamali. Kathryn isn't the head of the clan." sabi niya. "Not yet that is." dagdag pa niya.


Sandali akong napag-isip ano ang ibig niyang sabihin?


"My mom is still alive, isn't she." lahat kami ay napatingin sa kakapasok lang na si Kath pero nakatingin lang siya kay Christopher Park at Sam. "That was why Paul agreed with you because you were blackmailing him." she stated. "Where is she?"


"Kathryn." Sam called her.


"Dad where is my mom?" hindi pinakinggan ni Kath si Sam at nanatiling nakatitig lang sa ama niya. "WHERE IS SHE?" she yelled and tears started falling from her eyes. Gusto kong lumapit sa kanya at yakapin siya. Gusto kong ako ang magpatahan sa kanya.


"In an island." sagot ng ama niya.


Tumango tango si Kath. "And Sam did you know?" tanong niya kay Sam. Nagkatitigan silang dalawa na para bang nag-uusap silang dalawa and I was jealous dahil may ganun silang connection. She put her hand to her mouth to cover it. "You knew."


"Kathryn let me explain." Sam pleaded.


She shook her head. "No. You lied to me." sabi niya kay Sam. May kinuha siya sa bag niya at nilabas niya yung phone niya na para bang may tatawagan siya. "Paul I want to see my mom." sabi niya sa kausap niya sa phone niya. "I know so bring me to her immediately." utos niya dito at binaba niya din ito agad. Tinignan niya ulit si Sam. "I'll be visiting my mom."


"I'll come with you." Sam offered.


"I think we need some time alone Sam." Kath said. "You lied about so many things." dagdag niya. Tumingin naman siya sa akin. "Daniel can you accompany me?" tanong niya sa akin.


Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. Gusto niya akong sumama sa kanya? Ako? "Do you want me to?" I asked.


She nodded. "I still want to know my past and I trust that you won't lie about it so come with me.'


Ngumiti ako sa kanya dahil pinagkakatiwalaan niya ako. "Of course I'll go with you."


Ngumiti din siya sa akin tsaka niya tinignan ang ama niya at ang iba pang board of directors "Daniel won't leave his position in this company. Dad I trust that you won't make any fuss when I leave." sabi niya at tumingin ulit sa akin. "Come Daniel."


Sumunod na ako sa kanya. Kahit hindi ko man masyado naintindihan ang mga nangyari ngayon araw ayos lang dahil ako ang pinili ni Kath. Hindi ito maliit na bagay dahil alam kong may tiwala na siya sa akin.


Hindi ko man alam kung ako ba sa huli ang pipiliin niya ayos lang, tatandaan ko nalang palagi ang mga araw na magkasama kami.


Kahit anong mangyari mamahalin ko parin siya. Kahit sino pa ang piliin niya.


"Thank you Daniel." sabi sa akin ni Kath nang nasa elevator na kaming dalawa.


Kinuha ko ang kamay niya at nginitian siya. "No Kath, thank you for choosing me."


Ngumiti ulit siya sa akin. "I trust you because I know in my heart you will never lie to me." nagulat nalang ako nang bigla niya akong yakapin. "Paul said my mom is sick." ramdam kong umiiyak siya kaya hinayaan ko nalang siya.


"It will be alright." 

Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Daniel's Point of View


Ang dami ko ng naririnig na sinasabi ng tao sa akin kapag nakikita nila ako, mga bulong bulongan nila tungkol sa buhay ko ngayon. Na ako ay isang martir. Nakikita ko din sa mga mata ng iba ang awa nila kapag natingin sila sa direksyon ko.


Ako na galing sa magandang pamilya ay kinaaawaan ng madla dahil sa mga desisyon ko. Dahil hindi ko magawang talikuran ang babaeng mahal ko pero hindi ako maalala at nasa kamay ng ibang lalaki.


Madami na din ang nagpayo sa akin tungkol sa grounds ng annulment, pwedeng pwede daw ma-annul ang marriage namin ni Kath para daw makapag move on na ako. O di kaya daw ay hayaan ko nalang na magsama si Kath at Sam sa London at isipin na patay na talaga siya.


Na hindi siya bumalik sa buhay ko.


Pero hindi ko magagawa yun dahil bumalik siya sa buhay ko.


Hindi ko magagawang talikuran ang pagmamahal ko kay Kath dahil siya lang ang nag-iisang babae sa akin. Hindi ko siya magawang limutin dahil kaytagal ko siyang hinintay na bumalik sa akin.


Martir na kung martir pero eto ang nararamdaman ng puso ko, kahit pa minsan ako ay nasasaktan kapag kasama niya si Sam at sa tuwing naaalala ko na hindi na ako ang laman ng puso niya.


Umaasa parin ako na baka sakaling bumalik yung memorya niya at balikan niya ako. Umaasa ako na babalik siya sa akin, na mahalin niya ako ulit.


Siguro nga nakakaawa akong tignan pero kapag nagmahal ka na at alam mong tunay itong pagmamahal, hindi mo man kailan man magagawang talikuran ang pagmamahal na iyon, hindi mo kailan man malilimutan basta basta.


Ayos na sa akin na makita siya kahit isang beses sa isang araw, ayos na sa akin na makausap siya kahit saglit lang, na makita siyang nakangiti. Sapat na sa akin ang mga iyon hindi na ako hihiling pa dahil alam ko din naman sa sarili ko na kahit anong hiling ko hindi iyon matutupad.


"Daniel?" napatigil ako sa pag-iisip ko at tinignan si Kath na may halong pag-aalala ang pagtingin niya sa akin. "Are you okay?" tanong niya.


Ngumiti ako sa kanya at nakita ko kung paano nawala yung pag-aalala niya. "I'm fine. Shall we go back to our lesson?" tanong ko at tumango naman siya sa akin.


Tinuturuan ko siya ng Filipino at nandito kami sa garden ng bahay nila ni Sam, ang hirap man sabihin pero ayun ang totoo ngayon, kahit anong dokumento pa ang nagsasabi na ako ang asawa niya, si Sam parin ang tinuturing niyang asawa at hindi ako.


Araw araw ko siyang tinuturuan ng Filipino, minsan ay lumalabas kami ng bahay nila dahil gusto niyang mapuntahan lahat ng napuntahan niya noon. Noong isang linggo lang ay naghanda ako ng maliit na pagsasalo sa bahay namin ni Kath, sa hardin kung saan kami kinasal.


Nagustuhan niya iyon at alam kong nasiyahan siya kaso nang nalaman niyang umalis na si Sam nakita ko yung disappointment sa mukha niya. Dun ko lang din naintindihan na mali lahat ng iniisip ko. Na hindi dahil nasanay na siya sa presensya ni Sam kaya niya ito pinili, na dahil si Sam lang ang nakilala niya sa loob ng tatlong taon ay mas pinili niya ito. Mali pala ako.


Pinili niya na 'wag iwanan si Sam dahil mahal niya ito. Sobrang sakit man na malaman na mahal niya ito at na baka wala na talaga akong pag-asa, wala akong nagawa kundi paligayahin siya. Masakit man pero hindi ko talaga kayang bitawan yung natitirang pag-asa na pwede.


Isa akong masokista pero diba lahat naman tayo?


"Daniel?" tawag niya ulit sa akin. "Are you really okay? You've been spacing out a lot."


Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya. "I'm fine really Kath, no need to be worried."


She flushed. "I... I wasn't worried!" she stammered.


I chuckled and her cheeks grew redder. "Okay, say Mahal kita." I instructed her.


"Mahal kita." sabi niya na akala mo talaga alam niya ang sinasabi niya at ako ang sinasabihan niya. Sinasaktan ko ang sarili ko pero gusto ko lang itong marinig mula sa kanya.


"Mahal din kita."


"Mahal din kita." ulit niya sa sinabi ko. Tumawa ako sa kanya. "What?" she pouted.


I shook my head "Nothing Kath. Nothing."


"What did it mean?" she asked.


Alam kong pag sinabi ko lalayo na naman siya sa akin, naalala ko yung isang araw na sinabi kong mahal ko siya sabi niya masakit ang ulo niya kaya bumalik nalang daw ako kinabukasan. Hindi siya kumportable pagsinasabi ko iyon.


"You asked about Paul before right?" tanong ko pag-iiba ng topic namin.


"Daniel." she started.


Bago pa man niya masimulan ang sasabihin niya inunahan ko na siya "It meant..." I love you. "Expensive. Mahal." sagot ko sa kanya.


She open her mouth to say something but then closed it and then open but in the end she sighed. "Tell me about Paul."


"Paul was your mom's trusted assistant." sabi ko. "He was devoted to you and your family."


"Then why did he lie to me about my real identity?" she asked.


"I don't know." ayan lang ang nasagot ko sa kanya dahil ako din hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi niya binalik si Kath. He spoke that it was because he wanted her to have a normal life but I could only guess that what Kath had in London wasn't that normal and simple.


"Do you think he did it because of the money?" she asked. At kitang kita ko na ayaw niya na ganun ang rason ni Paul sa paglihim ng katotohanan sa kanya.


"I really don't know Kath. I wish I know more because I really want to know why he had to keep you away from me." I told her honestly.


Ininom niya muna yung tsaa niya bago siya tumingin sa akin "What do you think of my father?"


Sa totoo lang nung nagpakita na si Christopher Park sa kompanya, hindi ko magawang i-judge ang buong pagkatao niya, hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matakot sa kanya dahil sa hinding mababago-bagong expression ng mukha niya at ng kanyang aura na alam mong isa siyang makapangyahiran na tao.


Hindi ko alam kung saan siya ilulugar.


"The day I saw him he looked very stern."


Tumawa siya pero yung mahinhin na tawa lang. "That's daddy for you. Had you noticed that his expression doesn't change?" tanong niya, halata na natutwa siyang pinaguusapan ng ganito ang daddy niya. Na para bang naglalabas siya ng mga kwentong hindi niya pa nakukwento kahit kanino.


"Oh yes. How can one do that?"


She shrugged "Daddy seemed to have mastered having a poker face. In three years I've been with him, he never did give any sign of emotion another than that straight stern look of his." saad niya. "Was he scary for you?"


"No, intimidating yes but not scary."


"Yeah daddy have some ways for people to feel intimidated when he's around." sabi niya. "But daddy is a good person." she defended her father.


He's not, at least that's what the board thinks.


Natapos ang usapan na iyon at tahimik lang kaming dalawa habang umiinom pareho ng tsaa at ng scones. Masarap yung katahimikan na nararamdaman ko, hindi ito yung napaka-awkward pero yung katahimikan na kuntento ka na.


"Tell me did you confess first or did I?" nagulat ako sa tanong niya, kahit kailan hindi niya tinanong sa akin yung mga bagay tungkol sa aming dalawa lang.


"I did. Not in a very romantic way but the moment I saw you, I made you my girlfriend." naalala ko yung unang araw ng bagong buhay ni Kath sa school namin. Laking tuwa ko lang nung nakita ko siya.


"Really? And I said yes that easily?" gulat na din tanong sa akin.


"You had no choice." I smirked.


"You blackmailed me to be your girlfriend?" tanong niya na na nakataas ang kilay pero kita mo sa mga mata niya na natutuwa siya sa pinag-uusapan namin.


"You could say that." I shrugged. "One day on our way home after our date, you asked me why I wanted you to stay by my side and I told you I loved you."


"What did I say?" she asked eager to know what happened.


"I told you not to say anything. Then a month later Julia came and you became jealous of her."


"I did?" tanong niya sabay turo sa sarili niya.


"Yes you did and with that you finally admitted you loved me too."


She smiled. "We really were happy weren't we?"


"We were." I said. "But we faced so many trials before, you almost married Enrique because you thought I wasn't in love with you that I played you because of Bea." pagkukwento ko sa kanya.


"Bea?"


"You thought I was in love with Bea. And Bea was an old friend."


"But you weren't, were you?"


I chuckled "My, my. Are you jealous Kath?"


Nagblush siya "I'm not!" she said defensively. "Sometimes I wish I could remember that past." sabi niya at tumingin siya sa akin, hindi ko mabasa ang sinasabi ng mukha niya.


I wish that you could too.


Sasagot na sana ako nang biglang dumating ang sekretarya ko na hingal na hingal "Sir may emergency."


Hindi ko alam kung paano niya nalaman na nandito ako kay Kath o was it a common knowledge that I was always spending my time with Kath?


"Ano yun?" tanong ko.


"Christopher Park wants you out of the Rutherford Group and be replaced by Sam Gonzales." sagot niya. I heard Kath gasped.


Napatayo ako agad sa kinauupuan ko. Nilingon ko si Kath "Kath I'm sorry but I have to leave." sabi ko sa kanya.


"What's happening? What is my father doing in your company?" she asked.


"It's your company." sagot ko sa kanya. "I have to go. I'll talk to you tomorrow." sabi ko sa kanya at naglakad na paalis.


"I'm coming with you."


Author's Note:
3 chapters more on next Sunday. And yet the ending is still unclear for me and you.
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Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Chapter 26

Chapter 26

Julia's Point of View


"Siya ba yung sinabi mo dati?" Enrique said nung tumabi na siya sa akin. We were at the garden party Daniel had prepared for Kath. Much to Daniel's dismay sumama ang pekeng asawa ni Kath at ngayon ay nakatingin ako sa kanilang dalawa ni Kath.


Mukha silang masaya, ilang linggo na din ba pero parang wala parin pinagbago sa pakikitungo ni Kath kay Daniel, ganun parin sila wala parin naaalala si Kath at nasa tabi parin siya ni Sam.


"Funny isn't it?" I said as I faked a humor in it and a smile. It wasn't funny, it was a blow in my ego, dalawang lalaki na minahal ko ay si Kath ang mahal. I couldn't blame them, maganda si Kath, mapagmahal, Perfect si Kath nasa kanya na ang lahat kaya sino ang tatanggi sa isang Kathryn Rutherford?


"I don't get it, paano nangyari ang lahat ng ito?" Enrique said, sa tatlong taon na engagement namin medyo nagkaayos kami, magkaibigan naman kasi kami dati bago pa ako mapangalanan as his fiance.


Ako rin hindi ko alam.


Napatingin sa amin si Kath na nakangiti kaya I raised my glass and smiled at her. Mukha siyang masaya. Sa ilang linggo na magkasama sila ni Daniel pinakilala na din kami ni Daniel kay Kath at walang pinagbago si Kath ganun parin siya.


Pinagkaiba lang ay wala siyang naaalala tungkol sa amin lahat.


Nagsimulang maglakad si Kath palapit sa amin ni Enrique, si Sam naman ay sinagot yung tumawag sa kanya. Nakangiting lumapit sa amin si Kath. "Hi." she greeted us both.


"Are you enjoying the party?" tanong ni Enrique sa kanya.


Ngumiti si Kath "As a matter of fact I do. The garden is so beautiful also the house. I can't believe Daniel lives here." she said with a smile on her face.


"This is your house too." sabi ni Enrique sa kanya. Which made Kath uncomfortable. "This is where you grew up." dagdag pa niya


"I know. Daniel told me." Kath said.


After a while Enrique excused himself kaya kaming dalawa nalang ni Kath ang natira. "Kath?"


"Hmmm?"


"How did you meet Sam?" I asked. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko to tinatanong pero gusto ko lang talaga malaman kung paano, kung paano na in love si Sam sa kanya at ganun din siya.


"For me the first time we met was when I woke up and he was introduced as my husband." sagot niya. Of course ayun ang sagot. "But I asked Sam the day I learned that Daniel is my real husband how he met." she continued. So before the accident nagkakilala na sila? That was the ball.


"At the ball?" I asked.


Tumingin siya sa akin na parang nagulat "So it was true? That we met at that ball?"she asked. Hindi siya naniniwala na nagkita na sila dati pa lang? Why?


"Yes why?"


Umupo siya sa bench at ganun na din ako "Well you see I remembered a bit o my past, it was that ball and I was dancing with Daniel and we were talking about the myth about the gala. I asked Sam how we met and he told me we were also dancing and talking about the myth." napatigil ako sa paghinga. "So who was I dancing with really?"


Naalala ko yung gabing iyon, that was the most beautiful memory I had, I was dancing with the perfect gentleman. And we were also talking about the myth.


"I swore it was Daniel in my mind but Sam...." Kath started.


There was only one reason to all of it. Sam thought Kath was the one he was dancing with that night. Who wouldn't? I was wearing Kath's shawl and mask.


"Daniel was the one you were dancing with during the midnight dance." I assured her.


"So Sam was lying?" Kath voice broke. Na para bang nasaktan siya na nagsinungaling si Sam pero hindi siya nagsinungaling. He though Kath was the one.


"No. You did meet at the ball."


I saw how relieved she was. "I'm glad he didn't lie because lying about being my husband was enough and I don't think I could handle more lies." sabi niya. Tama nga naman si Kath masyado ng malaki yung bagay na ginawa ni Sam sa kanya kaya paano pa niya makakaya yung magsisinungaling parin ito sa kanya?


"I'm sure he loves you so much that he won't lie anymore." sabi ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko iyon nasabi, diba dapat tinutulungan ko si Daniel na makuha ulit si Kath kaso nakikita kong malungkot si Kath sa idea na nagsisinungaling si Sam.


"He does. That's the only thing I'm sure of. I can always feel he loves me." Kath told me. Paano kaya magmahal si Sam?


Gusto ko pa sanang magtanong ng mga bagay sa buhay ni Kath kaso dumating si Daniel at hiniling niyang makipag-usap kay Kath kaya umalis na ako, mas kailangan nilang mag-usap.


Naawa na ako minsan kay Daniel kasi alam kong nahihirapan siya, sino nga ba naman ang hindi mahihirapan kung yung babaeng mahal mo ay masaya kapiling ng iba?


Naglakad lakad nalang ako sa garden ng bahay nila Kath, sobrang ganda parin talaga nito. Sa paglalakad ako nakita ko si Sam, nakatingin siya sa pond at mukhang malalim yung iniisip niya.


Nagdalawang isip akong lumapit kaso sa huli lumapit parin ako. "Ayaw mong makisalamuha?" tanong ko sa kanya.


Mukha siyang nagulat sa presensya ko "Hindi ko kayo mga kaibigan. Nandito ako para kay Kathryn."


"At least diba dapat i-try mo, mga kaibigan kami ni Kath." sabi ko sa kanya.


"What for? You are all trying to get her back with Daniel." bitter na sabi niya.


"Daniel is her husband." mahina kong sagot sa kanya.


"I know but I love her." sabi niya habang nakatingin parin sa pond at hawak hawak yung champagne glass niya. "Mahal ko si Kathryn at hindi ko ata kakayanin pag nawala siya sa akin."


"You know the only thing you can do is to walk away like a man of honor would do."dahil sa huli, babalik at babalik parin si Kath kay Daniel, that's how this works. 


Tumingin na siya sa akin at ngumiti ng mapakla "I had already proven that I am a man without honor so why would I walk away? I'll fight for Kathryn till the end."


"You must really love her."


"I do. I knew I had fallen in love the moment I laid my eyes on her during that ball." Sam declared. Oh God. Hindi ko ata kayang marinig to. Dahil sa aming dalawa ako lang ang nakakaalam na ako yung nasayaw niya at hindi si Kath.


Sasabihin ko ba o hindi?


May magbabago ba pag sinabi ko ang katotohanan?


Maybe.


"But I had fallen harder during the times I was with her." at ayan ang kasagutan sa tanong ko, walang magbabago dahil mahal niya si Kath bilang si Kath at hindi yung nasayaw niya sa ball. Tumalikod siya sa pond "Tara balik na tayo?" he asked.


Kaya sumabay na din akong maglakad kasama siya, tahimik lang kami pero ramdam ko ang pag pintig ng puso ko.


Kalokohan siguro talaga ito, pwede ba talaga magmahal ka sa isang taong hindi mo naman talaga kilala?


Kasi kung isa itong kabaliwan baliw na nga siguro ako.


Dahil sa mahabang panahon mahal ko parin si Sam.


Napatigil si Sam sa paglalakad kaya tumigil din ako, tinignan ko siya at nakita kong nakatingin siya kay Kath at Daniel na nagtatawanan. Ngumiti ako nung nakita ko yun dahil it was like old times.


Yung tumatawa si Kath habang si Daniel ay nakangiti na pinagmamasdan si Kath. They looked so in love, so normal. Wala parin pinagbago, pagdikitin mo silang dalawa at alam mong nandun parin ang sparks.


"I could never compete with that could I?" Sam said kaya agad ako napatingin sa kanya at nakita ko yung sakit na nararamdaman niya. "Paki sabi kay Kathryn na may emergency sa company at umalis na ako."  he said and walked away.


He was wrong. He could walk away.


And I was hurting for him.


He was walking away dahil ayun lang ang kaya niyang gawin.


Because when it's true love, no matter what happens they will always find a way to be together.


At kahit ano pang hadlang sa kanila ay walang magagawa.


"So anong pinag-usapan niyo?" I turned and saw Enrique.


"Nothing." sabi ko at naglakad na din palayo. Katulad ni Sam wala din akong magagawa kundi maglakad palayo sa kanya.


Mahal niya si Kath.


It was just one night nothing more. 

Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two- Chapter 25

Chapter 25

I waited for Sam to get home. It was past 10 when he came back home and I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to act around him anymore now that I knew the truth that I wasn't his wife. We were never married.


I didn't know what should I say, I was afraid I would say something wrong and I didn't want that to happen. I noticed that he didn't know what to do also. Because I didn't know what to do, I used the one thing every wife asked her husband every time he got home.


"Have you eaten?" I asked.


He looked slightly surprised then he flashed me his smile, the smile that I thought I would not see for a while. "I haven't." he answered me. "Have you?" I shook my head "Why not?" he asked.


"I was waiting for my husband." I smiled at him he was taken aback with what I just said. I knew he already knew that I found out the truth earlier. Then I saw how his face fell like what I just said was wrong, that maybe I wasn't waiting for him after all but my real husband. And I didn't want him to feel like that. "I was waiting for you."


He took a step forward and took my hand as he pulled me towards him. He held me tightly, his face buried into my shoulder and he was slightly shaking. I wrapped my arms to his body and patted him gently on his back. "I was so scared." he stated. "I was so scared that when I get back you're not here anymore." he continued. "I was so scared you left me."


He hugged me tighter and I did the same for him to know that I will never leave him. For him to know I didn't leave. "I'm here Sam."


"I was so scared that you would hate me, I still am scared Kathryn."Sam admitted.


"Why would I hate you Sam?" I asked him. "You may had lied to me being my husband but it doesn't matter." I told him.


He pulled away and looked into my eyes "It doesn't?" he asked.


"It doesn't."


"Why?"


"Because I love you."


"You still do?"


I smiled at him sweetly "Of course I still do. You may not be my real husband but you fit the role perfectly for three years. I love you, you alone." I told him honestly. It was the truth. Daniel may be my real husband but he wasn't there but Sam was.


I lost my memories and Sam was there to create new memories with me.


"I love you too Kathryn so much." he said as he crashed his body onto mine once again. I lightly chuckled "I love you." he kept on repeating those words and I believed every word he said because I felt it.


"Let's eat?" I asked him as I pulled away from his hug. He nodded, I took his hand and walked with him towards the dining room. It wasn't the time to ask him questions that filled my mind, I needed to make Sam feel that I won't be leaving him no matter what.


We ate silently, Sam kept on glancing over me maybe to check on me and every time he did, I would always smile at him. It was to reassure him. Sam was very vulnerable this time, fearing I'd leave him anytime soon.


After our dinner, I urged him to take a shower because it had been a long day and I was so sure he needed one. I prepared his clothes and lied them on our bed. I then changed into my nightdress and sat at the bed afterwards with a book in my hand.


I loved reading, it was the only thing I ever got to do when we were back in London well that was when I had my free time. My days were always scheduled, I had to follow that schedule, daddy was a perfectionist and he wanted everything his way.


Sam got out of the shower with a towel draped into his waist down. He quickly changed into his clothes and jumped into bed with me. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked carefully.


I closed my book and turned to him. "If you don't want to talk about it yet, we won't Sam. I'll wait for you to tell me your side." I smiled at him.


"But what if you turn to hate me and your father?"


"I won't hate you Sam. I will only hate you if you lied about loving me." I told him.


"I love you, no matter how twisted this is that's the only thing that isn't twisted Kathryn." Sam defended. I took his right hand and squeezed it to reassure him. "I love you."


"I love you too."


"I will tell you everything because I don't want to lie to you anymore. I don't want to wake up one day without you by my side." Sam told me. I nodded. "I fell in love with you at first sight."


"When did we meet?" I asked.


"At this gala event." Sam answered. "You were wearing a mask, everyone was. I spotted you talking to someone with a bored expression, I couldn't see it well but I knew you were bored so when it was time for the midnight dance, I asked for your hand and you hesitated at first but took it in the end. We were dancing and talking about the myth of the said gala......" he continued his story telling.


But I knew that story, I just saw it from my mind earlier with Daniel. Sam was telling me the same thing I saw but the difference was I saw I was with Daniel, was Sam lying to me now? No he wouldn't.


I continued to hear his story first.


"We were having fun. But the dance ended and you disappeared. I knew I had to find you and ask you for a date. I wanted to get to know you better. Then Uncle Rudolph introduced us." he said. "I was so happy but then that weekend you got married."


"With Daniel." I finished.


He nodded."I told myself I need to give up and so I did. One night I got a call from your father asking me if I would want to marry you. I said I was in love with you then he finally told me to meet him at his summer house in Baguio. Uncle and I met him there and he told us that you were in a plane crash and the doctors were operating on you in a small hospital in Baguio. He paid them a handsome amount of money to keep it confidential. I didn't know why he was hiding you from Daniel, from everyone but I followed through."


"So what happened next?"


"You weren't waking up so your father decided to put you on the first plane for London." Sam told me. So that was why we were in London. "I didn't know what was his plans when you wake up because clearly you would ask him to let you go back to Daniel. Then you woke up with no memory, it was like God was in favor of your father's bidding."


"Why did he want me separated with Daniel? He didn't like him before?" I asked. Why was daddy determined to separate me and Daniel?


"I asked him why he was lying, he told me that he just wanted to have a chance to be in your life. You see Kathryn, you grew up without him."


"He left me?" my voice broke.


He nodded. "It was the only thing he could do that time and when he heard you were in that plane crash he said it was his second chance to be with you. To finally get to know his own daughter."


A tear fell from my eyes. Daddy may not had shown me he loved me but now I could tell he did. "But why lie?"


"Because the lies were so much better than the truth that he left you. I on the other hand lied being your husband because it was the only way I could be with you." Sam said. "Do you hate me now because I'm selfish?" he asked looking at me with those eyes telling me he was so afraid of losing me.


I was too.


I shook my head. "I told you I would never hate you." I told him. I needed one more thing. I knew asking Sam that question wasn't appropriate but I needed to know. I had to know. It would sting but it was the only question that had been bugging me. "Sam." I started "Did I love Daniel?" I asked him.


He went still. I thought he wouldn't answer but he did "I guess you did." he answered.


"How would you know I loved him?"I asked.


"Because you chose him." He answered.


"It could be an arranged marriage." I said nonchalantly.


"You were engaged to be married to his cousin. But you chose Daniel that only meant that you loved him don't you think?" he said and I knew he was kinda hurt. Then why didn't he lie and told me that I didn't love Daniel?


I knew he was afraid that once I learned that I loved Daniel I might go back to him but then why didn't he just lie?


Would you like him to lie Kathryn?


I don't know. Maybe.


But it was all in the past now. I had forgotten Daniel and if I truly loved him would never be answered. What was important was right now. "You know that it doesn't mean anything right Sam? That knowing I loved Daniel in the past doesn't change what we are." I told him.


He smiled at me, the kind of smile that told me he was happy that I felt that way. "Thank you Kathryn." he hugged me. "Thank you for staying with me."


"You are my home Sam."


"Would you like us to go back to London now?" he asked me.


I shook my head and pulled away from him. "I can't. I promised Daniel we would stay."


"Why?"


"Because I want to know more about my past." I told him honestly. I shouldn't be this honest with Sam after all he lied to me but he was still my husband, my love and I wouldn't lie to him.


"You would leave me." he stated.


My heart sunk when I saw his pained expression. "Sam, it's my past....."


"With Daniel." he finished.


"But you are my present and my future aren't you?"


He looked up to me."I am?"


I chuckled. "Yes you are. Daniel is my past and you are my present and future." I assured him.


Daniel was my past nothing more.


And I just wanted to know about my past, about why my own father lied to me. About why Paul also lied.


I just wanted to see him I can regain my memories by letting the people from my past tell me something about it.


That was all and at the end I would choose Sam.

He was the man I love after all.


Author's Note:
     5 more chapters left before the ending. By the end of May Just a Spoonful of Love will also end. The update schedule is still the same every Sunday, 6 pm (Philippine Time). Next week, two or more chapters will be posted at the same time. Enjoy reading. xx

Just a Spoonful of Love Part Two - Chapter 24

Chapter 24

Kathryn's Point of View

"No." I said firmly and Daniel's face fell but then he immediately masked it off. Why would I go with them when I don't even know them all? What they were showing were photos and photos can be manipulated. It's the 21st century and technology is at its finest. "You can go now." I said. 

"Please Kath let's go home." Daniel said again as he offered his hand to me. 

I stared at his hand and a flash of memory came back, Daniel was wearing a mask and he held out his hand for me and I gladly took it and he led me to the dance floor. 

His eyes bore into mine and we just kept looking at each other. "I'm glad I could dance with you." he said and I nodded "Alam mo ba may myth about the midnight dance during this gala?" I shook my head "Sabi nila yung kasayaw mo daw ngayon ang taong nakatakda para sayo."

Why did that memory came back? Was it a memory? If so, then what did he say to me that night? Ugh I wished I could understand Tagalog!

I looked up to him and I saw him smiled, wow the way he smile makes my heart flutter, what's wrong with me "Alam mo ba na may myth about the midnight dance during this gala? Sabi nila yung kasayaw mo daw ngayon ang taong nakatakda para sayo." I said, when I remember something, it was always stuck with me, I remember every words but it was Tagalog and I wanted to know. He looked surprised "What does that mean?" I asked. 

"There was a myth during the midnight dance at the gala we were invited to and that myth stated that the person you are dancing with is the one meant for you."he answered me with a smile on his face. 

I was dancing with Daniel that night, did that mean anything? I was smiling and he looked at me with full of love. Did Sam really lie to me about being my husband? 

"You don't understand Filipino?" he asked me and I shook my head "Don't worry I'll teach you." he assured me. Sam didn't want me to learn the language for some unknown reason.

"Are you really my husband?" I asked him eyeing him to see if he's lying or not. 

"Yes." he said and I knew he was telling the truth "But you were involved in that crash in Baguio." he told me. Baguio? I looked at him questioning what he just said "The plane crash was in Baguio." he stated.

No it wasn't. It was in London. Or that's what Sam and daddy informed me. "Baguio? You mean the place here at the Philippines?" I asked him. 

He nodded "You were held up in a meeting and we went first to Baguio leaving you behind because you told us you'd take the plane." he informed me. "But then it crashed and you were confirmed dead." he said and he grabbed something from the pocket inside his coat.

He handed me the newspaper and I read it, it was written in English so I understood very well. 

Rutherford Group heiress, Leila Kathryn Rutherford-Vanderbilt died in a plane crash in Baguio. There were no survivor during the crash. It was reported that the plane malfunction due to mechanical reasons along with the weather.

There was a photo of me at the right side and at the center was the plane. So is it really true? Would I believe Daniel and the facts that they presented or Sam who I believed to be my husband for three years? 

But the facts were straight. 

"I need to talk to Paul." I said. Why did they all lie to me? Paul was there in my memory were he gave my hand to Daniel at the wedding.  Paul was not there when I woke up first. And when Sam and daddy introduced him as Sam's new assistant.


Daniel smiled at me sweetly as if he was approving what I just told him. "Then we can wait for him to come back." he said "Have you eaten?" he asked and I was mesmerized by his eyes so I just nodded to his question. He smiled again.


His smiles were refreshing and I can't help but feel at ease with his smiles. I noticed that we were alone now, the old men were gone. "Do you want to eat? I mean... I can tell the maid to prepare something for you, that is if you haven't eaten." I said embarrassed with myself, why am I acting like this in front of him?


There was it again, he smiled at me again. I wanted to tell him to stop smiling but something inside me tells me that if I do, I'd regret it. "I'm fine thank you Kath." he said and he sat down but his gaze was locked with mine.


I sat down across him, I was fidgety and I don't know why. Being here with Daniel really make my heart flutter. Like there are butterflies in my stomach, I never felt that with Sam before. My heart never flutter when I'm with Sam.


It was a moment of silent, not the awkward silence but the comfortable one, the feeling that you don't have to talk just to feel comfortable with each other. It was weird because I hardly know the guy but I feel comfortable and safe around him.


"If you were truly my husband why didn't you come looking for me?" I asked him. I don't know why I was asking and breaking the silence, but a part of me knew that I should ask him, that I should know the truth.


"Because we all thought you were dead." Daniel said. "But Paul gave me hope. He told me he'll find you and take you back. I waited for three years. I was holding to that hope to live. And now you're here." he told me.


Paul, who was he really? If this were all true then why didn't he take me back to Daniel? Why did he also lie to me?


"Milady!" Daniel and I looked up. Paul was walking towards us. When he reached us, he looked at me and then Daniel "Daniel." he greeted Daniel. He really know Daniel. "Anong ginagawa mo dito?" he asked. I was so sure that Paul was speaking in Tagalog for me not to understand a word.


"Kinukuha ko lang ang asawa ko." Daniel told him. "Nagsinungaling ka sa akin Paul, sabi mo hindi valid ang kasal namin pero nalaman kong valid ito. Asawa ko siya sa mata ng Diyos at ng batas."


"Nananahimik na siya Daniel bakit kailangan mo pang guluhin yung buhay niya ulit?" Paul asked. I really wished I could understand them.


"Dahil mahal ko siya!" Daniel stated. "Guluhin? Hindi ba kayo ang nanggulo sa buhay namin ni Kath? I wonder were you also part of that sick scheme to take Kath away from me?" he asked angrily. "Nangpanggap ka lang ba Paul? You knew how much I.... alam mo kung gaano ko siya kamahal pero nilayo niyo siya sa akin." he said. Why didn't he continue with English? He was saying something in English but he changed it.


"Ano bang mabibigay mo sa kanya Daniel? Hindi siya mabubuhay ng tahimik kasama ka. Tinupad ko lang ang pangako ko sa ina niya Daniel. I gave her the simple life."


Daniel snorted "Simple?" asked him. "We had a simple and happy life Paul. But you took that away from us. We finally got through everything. We lived a simple life. Pangako? Pinangako mo na magiging masaya siya sa bagong buhay niya pero naging masaya ba siya?"


"YES!" Paul said.


Daniel was about to say something but I interrupted them both "I can't understand you both, so will you please talk in English so that I could understand." I asked them both. I had enough of them bickering. I need answers already. "Paul answer me honestly." I turned to Paul "Whose wife am I really?" I asked and looked in his eyes pleading him to tell me truth because honestly I knew the answer already, I just need to confirm it. "Please don't lie to me." I begged.


Since Paul came to my life three years ago, I trusted him. I had this trust towards him and I couldn't understand why. He became my confidant. Dad was always stern and Sam always followed what Dad barked. I love my dad and Sam but they were always overbearing and Paul wasn't.


"His." Paul pointed his finger on Daniel. His face was full of regret and resignation. He didn't lie. I knew Daniel was my husband already, the facts gave me answers and also when Daniel spoke I knew he was speaking the truth and my memories.


"Then why am I with Sam?" I asked.


He couldn't answer. He wouldn't even try. I knew that because when you have no memories at all, you tend to have more free time and during those free time, I'd study the expressions of a man and learn its meanings. I knew when someone is lying and when someone isn't. But there were exception to my case studies and that were dad and Sam.


They seemed to mastered to have a poker face. Not once did I see dad expression change into something else other than the stone face he always used. With Sam, there were a lot of times when he would open up to me, when he would bring down the wall and let me read his expressions. Just like last night and today, I saw fear in his eyes.


Never once did I see Sam like that. Sam was always strong-willed and he never showed me his fears but last night and today, I saw that. I saw how he feared of us being separated. He feared me leaving his side.


Sam might had mastered to have a poker face but still some emotions couldn't be masked with a poker face like for example love. Sam loved me. He may not be my true husband but he loved me. He never left my side fearing I'd leave his.


Sam was always cold to others but when he was with me, he would show his true self. His cold-stern facade was because he didn't want people to think they could walk all over him but that was all it was: a facade. Deep inside that cold facade was a warm loving man.


A kindhearted man who would show me he truly did care about me.


He didn't force me to love him. He waited. We created new memories.


I love Sam though he isn't my true husband, he still is my husband.


"Kath let's go home and we'll talk about everything you want to know about your past." Daniel said. I looked up to him and saw how he genuinely wanted me to come home with him.


But I was already home. Daniel might be my true husband and I knew he waited for me for three long years but Sam.... Sam was my home.


All those times were I was scared to death by nightmares, Sam was there. Sam was always there for me. Sam lied to me being my husband but he never did lie about his feelings.


I couldn't go with Daniel. Sam needed me.


"I'm sorry but I'm staying." I told him.


Daniel showed how hurt he was, he didn't hide it this time. "But I'm your husband." his voice broke.


"I don't know you." I told him.


"Then you can get to know me again but please let's go home." he pleaded.


"This is my home." I said. "Please release Sam." I asked him.


He shook his head "If I do, I will lose you once again. You will leave again." he said.


"If you release Sam, I promise we won't leave. We'll stay here until I accept everything. You are always welcome to visit me and get to know me." I told him. This was all I could give him. I won't leave until I learn everything I need to learn.


I have to know why dad and Sam lied to me. Why did they take me away, I have to know why.


"Then what will happen when you accept everything? Would you go home with me?" he asked hopefully.


I shook my head "I don't know yet but you have to promise me that you will accept whatever choice I make later." I lied. I know what I would do. I'll stay with Sam. I love Sam and he would always be my husband.


I'm using Daniel and I feel bad about it but I just want to know everything.


"Alright." Daniel said "I promise." he tried to smile.


"Thank you."


He stood up "I'll go now and tell them to release Sam." he said. He looked at me and forced a smile "Bye Kath."he said and left.


I swear I saw a tear falling from his eyes. Did I hurt him?


Why was my heart ached when the thought of hurting him crossed my mind?