A Little Help from Destiny Chapter 31

Chapter 31 - He's the reason why I'm hurting

"Don't ever let them feel like they've won. Stand up and show them how my Mary can stand up on her own and fight."

Louie once told me that nung nagkaaway away kami ng mga friends ko sa school. Sabi niya maging malakas ako at tumayo mag-isa. 

Tama siya. Dapat maging malakas ako. Hindi dapat ako umiiyak ngayon. Natraydor man ako ng sarili kong best friend dapat bumangon parin ako. Hindi ako papatalo kay Phat, kasi katulad niya kaya ko rin lumaban. Lumaki kaming sabay kaya I know her. At parehas kami, kaya nga naging magkaibigan kami kasi parehas kami ng ugali, what we want, we get. 

Umayos ako ng upo at pinunsan ko yung luha ko at sinave ko yung picture ni Kim at Phat. Tas sinagot ko din yung pm ni Kim with sending him the picture. 

Mary: Bagay kayo. I wish you all the best! :)

Tas  ginawa ko na yung dapat kong gawin, in our circle we don't want traitors sa group. I sent them all an email containing the picture and what I can say about it.

Look guys, my own best friend betrayed me. Sinabi ko lang sa kanya na may problema kami ni Kim, eto siya nakikipag date sa lalaking yun. Let's all be happy for her.

 Ang bitter ko ba pero masama bang maging bitter kung yun sarili mong best friend niloko ka? She betrayed me. Pinaniwala niya ako na hindi na niya gusto si Kim pero eto siya, nakikipag date sa lalaking yun!

Online sila Lani at nagulat sila kaya nagsi-conference call kaming lahat.

"Mary ayos ka lang ba?" tanong ni Cass sa akin. "Hindi ko akalain na magagawa yan ni Phat." she said.

Ako din. Hindi ko inakala na kaya ni Phat piliin si Kim kaysa sa friendship namin.

"I didn't know she was this desperate." Elle commented.

"Guys let's hear Phat first bago tayo mang husga." sabi ni Lani. Of course dahil wala na si Louie si Lani na yung nagiging buffer namin. Neutral lagi. Kailan kaya niya ako kakampihan?

"What Lani? Hindi pa ba sapat yung picture na yun? Alam naman natin lahat na nag-away si Mary at Kim." sabi ni Elle.

"Pero malay natin hindi sila nagdadate."

"Sinabi niya sa mga tao na they're dating." sabat ko.

Nakita kong nagpm ulit si Kim.

Kevin Ian Montenegro: Mary, I'm sorry. If you're hurt I didn't mean it I promise. I was just hurt please do forgive me.

Hindi ko yun pinansin. Didn't mean it. I know he meant it.

"What's all this guys?" narinig ko yung boses ni Phat sa conference call namin nila Lani. "Why the sudden call?"

"Sino nagsali sa kanya!" I asked furiously.

"Ako Mary, sabi ko naman we need to hear her." Lani said.

"Ayoko! Traydor yan! Mangloloko! Bakit ko siya papakinggan!?" I yelled.

"Mary your health." pagpapaalala ni Elle sa akin.

"Ano bang sinasabi mo louch?" she asked me and addressed me through our endearment. Eeww.

"Traydor ka." I said straighly "You betrayed me." I said "Paano mo nagawa yun Phat? Paano mo nagawang idate si Kim?" I asked her.

"Mary." she called "I'm sorry."

"Sorry ayun lang? Ayun lang yun? Niloko mo ako!"

I saw Kim pm-ed me again.

Kevin Ian Montenegro: Please talk to me. I didn't mean it. I wanted to get even and I thought that by using Tricia I can hurt you, but I made a mistake. I don't want to hurt you please Mary. The dates it didn't mean anything. She came during Thanksgiving and I complained to her about you and Louie, she said so many things that I just wanted to get even to you. I was so frustrated hearing his name so I decided to do it. Please Mary, please don't hate me. It already ended. I told her that I can't.

"Paano kita niloko? Hindi naman kayo ni Ian? Kayo ba? Bakit ka ba nagagalit?" Phat asked, ayan lumabas na yung Phat na maldita.

"Phat!" Cass said "Hindi lang si Mary yung niloko mo pati kami. Alam mong hindi maayos yung relationship nila pero sumingit ka pa." she said.

Habang nasa tenga ko yung phone nakatingin lang ako sa mga pm ni Kim.

Kevin Ian Montenegro: I'd do anything you want me to do, just talk to me and tell me you forgive me. I can't lose you like this. Tricia was nothing, you know that right? That you are the only one that I love? No one not even Tricia can take your place. Talk to me. I promise Mary, I won't be jealous with Louie. I'll accept that he will always be mention. The package deal. I am alright with that.

Hindi ko na napakinggan yung mga bangayan nila Phat at Ella dahil binabasa ko yung mga pm ni Kim, hindi lang yan yung pm niya madami pa at yung isa siniraan ako ni Phat.

"Bakit mo ako siniraan kay Kim?" I asked her "Bakit ka pumunta sa Thanksgiving dinner nila? Are you even invited? Ganun ka na ba kadesperada Phat at nagsalita ka na ng masama tungkol sa akin pati kay Louie?" I asked her. 

"Anong ibig mong sabihin Mary?" Lani asked. 

"Bakit hindi mo tanungin si Phat?" I said "Tutal ang dami niya kasing alam tungkol sa amin ni Louie eh." I said bitterly. "Wala na nga si Louie dinamay mo pa para lang makuha mo si Kim. Kaibigan mo si Louie pero kung ano anong sinabi mo tungkol sa kanya. Anong karapatan mong tawagin sarili mo bilang kaibigan ni Louie kung ganyan lang trato mo sa kanya?" I asked at hindi ko na napigilan yung luha ko kasi yung mga sinabi ni Phat kay Louie napakasakit lang. 

Hindi ko hahayaan na siraan niya si Louie. Louie was a great guy and he was perfect. He made no mistakes pero eto ngayon sinisiraan siya ni Phat. 

"Louie treated you like a sister, he never said anything to you pero bakit ganun ka Phat? Bakit ganun kadali para sayo na sirain yung pagkakaibigan natin? Sabi ko mapapatawad kita at si Kim yung hindi ko papatawarin kasi sabi naman niya you were just someone he used to get back at me." I said. 

"What? I don't believe you." Phat said. 

"Nag pm sa akin si Kim ngayon. Kaya nga nalaman ko yung mga pinagsasabi mo eh. Louie was a player? Louie was psychopath? Louie took my virginity? Louie hurt me physically? Pero tinanggap ko parin siya na ganun ko kamahal si Louie. Ayun diba yung sinabi mo kay Kim. Na kahit sinasaktan tayo ni Louie, tanggap ko parin siya." I said through gritted teeth.  "Na walang respeto si Louie kahit kanino? Na dahil best friend mo ako kaya hinahayaan mo lang si Louie pero sa totoo ayaw mo dito dahil sa ugali niya? How dare you."

"Sinabi mo yun Phat?" It was Lani's voice. "Sinabi mo yun tungkol kay Louie?" she cried "Kapatid ko yung siniraan mo. Kapatid ko na tinanggap ka nung naglayas ka sa inyo. Kapatid ko na kahit kailan hindi ka sinaktan. Kapatid ko na nung may nambastos sayo, nakipag away siya at na ground at hindi niya inamin kay mommy at daddy yung nangyari tas ngayon siniraan mo siya? Wala ka bang utang na loob sa mga ginawa sayo ni Louie?" she yelled. "Kapatid ko yun. Nananahimik na si Louie pero sinisiraan mo siya. Kailan ka niya sinaktan ha Phat? Kailan niya tayo sinaktan? Kailan siya nawalan ng respeto? Kailan siya naging babaero kung buong buhay niya si Mary lang ang minahal niya?" 

"Lani, wag kang maniwala kay Mary hindi ko yan sinabi." Phat cried. 

"So sinasabi mo na nagsisinungaling si Mary? Si Mary na kahit kailan hindi kayang pakawalan si Louie? Si Mary na may marinig lang na masamang bagay tungkol kay Louie nagwawala na?" Elle said I knew she was crying. 

"Hindi totoo yan please maniwala kayo sa akin. Galit lang si Mary sa akin kaya sinasabi niya yan. Nagseselos siya kasi nawala sa kanya si Kim kaya ginagamit niya si Louie ngayon para madivide tayo."

"No Phat ikaw yung nag divide sa atin." Cass said. "Kilala ko si Mary, ou nagalit siya kay Louie kasi iniwan siya nito pero kahit kailan hindi niya sisiraan si Louie kahit pa anong mangyari. She'll always choose Louie. She'll always praise him no matter what. Phat, Louie never did hit us. He was overly protective, overbearing pero mahal na mahal tayong lahat." she cried. "How can you say things like that about him?"

"Sorry guys. Hindi ko naman sinasadya eh, lumabas lang talaga siya nung nakausap ko si Ian. Please guys sorry." Phat cried. 

Umiyak lang ako kasi sinisi pa niya ako. At kasi yung mga kaibigan namin, hindi nila ako sinisi, hindi sila nagbintang. Kilala nga talaga nila ako. Pero umiiyak ako dahil sobrang sakit ng mga nangyayari.

"You knew the mention of Louie's name would drive Kim crazy kaya mo sinabi. Alam mo yun. Pumunta ka dun sa dinner na yun, desidido sa gagawin mo. I can forgive Kim alam mo bakit? Kasi sinabi niya sa akin ngayon, tatanggapin na niya na laging kasama si Louie, na package deal kami ni Louie. Pero ikaw I won't ever forgive you. I won't dahil hindi lang yung pagkakaibigan natin yung sinira mo pati na din kay Louie. In behalf of Louie, you are no longer part of my life." I said. 

I'd miss Phat. I will. Pero after what she did, I can never fogive her. Ayos pa una sa akin kung ako lang yung siraan niya kaso si Louie na, that was a low blow. Hindi ko hahayaan na masira yung image ni Louie. Louie was someone you can always look up to. 

Nag-iyakan lang muna kaming lahat at walang nagsalita sa amin.

"I've decided." nagsalita si Lani bigla "The treaty we all thought we won't ever use, will take effect." she said and I heard gasps sa phone. 

"No. Please Lani." Phat pleaded. 

"No. Tama lang." Lani said. "Bukas na bukas din sasabihan ko na sila Aya." she said and she was determined. "Guys are you with me?"

"Yes." sagot nila Elle at Cass. 

"Mary?" she called. The treaty. Tama, dati akala namin kahit kailan hindi namin ito magaamit pero eto kami ngayon.


"Do it." tama lang yun. Tama lang yun. 

"Then Phat you are never allowed to step foot here in Manila." Lani said. Yes that was the treaty before. We'd remained friends but she will be banished. Bawal na. 

"What about me? Dapat hindi din kayo pwedeng pumunta dito sa New York." Phat said. 

"Vacation is allowed. At isa pa, we won't want to see you there kaya better leave New York. Claire is there." Lani said. Sometimes may pagka mean si Lani pero she's fair "You wouldn't want Claire's wrath don't you?" 

"New York is mine!" Phat said. 

"Edi dun ka sa baba ng New York." Elle said. "Schoolmate mo pa naman si Claire ngayon. Mag home school ka nalang ulit." 

"Guys yaan niyo na siya sa New York. Hindi naman tayo pupunta diyan sa infected na city na yan. We could always go nalang sa Paris virus free." I said. 

Alam ko kung gaano ka gusto ni Phat yung New York at papaalisin pa ba namin siya sa isang lugar na tanggap siya? 

"You're right." Sabi ni Cass

And just like that, all the years of our friendship drained. Wala na. Dahil lang sa kagustuhan niyang mapunta sa kanya si Kim. 

I didn't talk to Kim too. Kahit pa sabihin natin na si Phat yung may kasalan, it won't be right. Kim did his part. Siya ang dahilan kung bakit nasira yung pagkakaibigan namin. Kung bakit nasiraan si Louie. 

Siya yung dahilan ngayon kung bakit ako nasasaktan. Hindi ko akalain na darating yung panahon na si Kim, na nangako na kahit kailan hindi niya ako sasaktan, na mamahalin lang niya ako would be the reason why I'm hurting. 

Why I'm so much in pain. Because of him, I lost my best friend. Because of him, I feel so alone.